Welp, due to the insanely inconsistant Wi-Fi connections I have been getting lately, I have not been able to keep up with all I have been wanting to say, exspress, and opinionate. But for some reason I think that might be a good thing.
2010 and was definately a rollercoaster for me. But a fun one. I learned many things, and had the opportunity to make a change for myself. Moving to California was probabaly one of the best desicions I could have made for myself at this point in time. And I think I am growing a lot more than what I would ever be able to in Oregon. Being stuck in a town that doesnt allow you to grow and distinguish yourself from others tends to get tiring and exhausting. Who knew being like everyone else was so hard?
I found myself lonely but happy here. Serenity I have been missing since I started to lose my innocense, I am slowly gainging back. California, so much I am unacustomed to and unaware of. People can see what they want in it, they can see happiness or they can see sadness and violence. I see both. Change for me is difficult, extremely difficult. I know its only a state down from Oregon. But It's a billion heartbeats away from home. The culture here is different as well as climate. Its a big adjustment, and I am just know learning how to accept it.
What I am really trying to say here. Is that 2010 could possibly be the best worst year of my life. And I'm so thankful for experiencing and facing all the challenges that I did. Better now than later. Being young and being me are two different things, but as 2011 arrived I plan on learning how to do both (without losing my mind, without substituting other things for my happiness, with out going in debt, and wihtout losing people I love)
BRING IT ON 2011! I am so estatic to show you what I am made of!!!!
-ASHLEE
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